Fun Weekend

Just got back from spending the weekend in Vegas with Greg and Rhonda, Cliff's cousins from Colorado. Went down on Sat afternoon and had dinner at Bob Taylor's Ranch House out on the 95. It was nice. We thought it would be fun to show them some of "old" Vegas since it is about gone. Then we stayed the night at the Hilton and saw "Heart" in the showroom. It was a great show and the girls still have it. Man what a voice Ann has. The mix of people at the show were really strange, just old 60's rockers, county people, young kids and crack heads. I enjoyed it but most of the people around us were too noisy and were more into partying than listening to the music. It was a little annoying as I really like Ann Wilson's voice and would have loved to have been able to focus on really listening to her phrasing but alas too much noise. With all that said it was a rollicking trip back to the 60's with patchouli oil in the air.

We spent the night and got up this morning and went to breakfast at the buffet then drove home, said good bye to the "Cole's (they left for Colorado) and have been having a lazy day watching comedy. It feels good to be home. I am feeling pretty good today.

Last night I "partied" (no drinking I just was up) a little too much and went to the room early to lay down while everyone else tried to take the Hilton's money. I was tireder than I thought and having jabbing pains in my jaws. This Taxol is a pain in the joints. Sometimes it's my knees and mostly my jaws hurt and it feels like my teeth are falling out. Then at random times my nose will start to bleed. Joy! I feel completely disgusting sometimes. I told Cliff not to be surprised if we woke up and my teeth and jaw were laying on my pillow. Poor thing he has to see it all. Anyway, it was much better this morning and I am pretty good now, so just have to let time pass and it gets better.

I am going down in the morning to Vegas to file some papers for Charlee at family court and Cliff is going to watch the baby Gordy. Hopefully I can meet Teddi and baby Oli and we can have breakfast. Love my baby girls.

Sunny and Warm

Once again the days have slipped away since I last posted. I am in treatment once a week now and I go on Wednesdays at 9:00. It takes about 6 1/2 hours for the treatment, which is painless just long and boring. I do take a good book and visit with some of the other patients. I am always amazed at the stories. Person after person misdiagnosed due to no doctor follow thru and making incorrect assumptions rather than fact/science based assessment. All caused by our horrible health care system. If anyone believes the Republican hype that we have the best medical care in the world, you must be crazy. We are actually 27th in the civilized world with France having the best care/quality of life/ and longevity,and that's pretty sad. And it's all because insurance companies are too greedy to authorize preventative care tests that would save lives. Until you are on a collision course with death your condition is ignored and even then you fight for care. It is crazy and I can tell you these politicians from both parties who are playing this game are the ones who made a pact with the devil, not the poor people of Haiti. What a completely screwed up world, where right is made to seem wrong and wrong held up as virtue. Oh well, see ya in hell boys!!

It has finally stopped raining here. I am sure we needed it but it got awful dreary. I love the sun, plus it makes poor little Gabbi stir crazy to stay in the house too much. She goes to the door and says, "Mon (for come on). She want out. Yesterday Cliff pushed her in her swing till she fell asleep. It was pretty funny. He is such a good Big Daddy. He is going as a chaperon on Tony's guitar clinic in Las Vegas next week, what a guy. God know what he was going when he made that one for sure.

Cliff's cousin Greg and his wife Rhonda will be in town tonight and we are looking forward to seeing them. I had a big burst of energy as I always do the first day of treatment cause they pump me so full of steroids I stay up all the first night even if I take my Adavan, so I got the house cleaned, windows washed, outside cleaned up with Cliff's help, so now I feel like company. We are going to Vegas tomorrow night and stay at the Hilton as we have tickets to see Heart. Should be fun. I start to crash on the weekends so I hope I hold up but if I can't go the distance we have a room and can just go up and go to bed, so it should be fun. That way Cliff can party with his cousins and still have fun. He has been cooped up in this house till he is about crazy. He needs to get out bad. So looking forward to this weekend, bowling tonight, feeling good, my hair is starting to grow back even thought I am still in treatment. It is just fuzzy and gray and so ugly, but it is there. Now they tell me I can't dye it for 6 months or it will all break off and fall out again. How funny is that. I guess it's time to face the OLD LADY in me and embrace her old ass!! What next!!

How Time Flies

Well I looked at my blog and could not believe how long it had been since I had posted anything. We have been baby sitting Charlee's baby, Gabbi for the last month or so and it keeps both of us hopping all day long. I tell you I had forgotten how "busy" a two year old can be. Lord we do enjoy her but by the time she goes home at 5:00 we are both worn out. I don't know how Charlee and Teddi do it, working and taking care of those babies. I know I did it too, but I just don't remember it being this tiring.

We didn't have Gabbi this morning so I got a lot done and even ran to St George to try to figure out some doctor bills. I am an accountant and I can't make heads or tails of these doctor's billings. They can't seem to figure it out either. Every bill I get has the same invoice numbers but different amounts, nothing matches their statements. Lord what a mess. So I just keep wading thru it and trying to figure it out. I am getting tired of "you'll have to talk to my supervisor but she's not here this week".

My article I wrote came out in the paper over the past 3 weeks. It is a full 2 1/2 pages and can be read on mesquitelocal.com under The Big C. Everyone says I should add to it and write a book, but I don't know if I have the energy or not. I really feel pretty good just not too much pep. I started my new kind of chemo and it doesn't make me feel nearly as "weird". But it does make my hands and feet tingle and they are really tender. Kind of strange. I tried to stop taking my sleeping pills last night since I was off the other chemo, but I woke up at 1:00 am and could not go back to sleep so I guess I will keep taking them. I mean what can happen? It's not like I have to worry about getting cancer!!HA.

Tony and Cliff are playing video games , killing zombies, they have a lot of fun together. Teddi is coming up tomorrow to go to a car show with her friend so we will get to see her. I guess she is leaving Oliva with a sitter so we will not get to see our "big girl" but maybe we can see her next week.

It is a beautiful day today and I am enjoying the sunshine. It is suppose to rain all next week so I am getting the sun while I can. I can't imagine how Gabbi will be all couped up all week. Yikes!!!She is so sweet, we will just have to watch movies all week and "play babies". Of course, Daddy Daddy will have to keep her all "punched up". She takes her little fists and acts like she's boxing and then they fight. It is so funny and she loves it and then will scream and run for me and act like she is being beat up. She will do it all day if you will play!!

Sunny Week

Well we took the kids home last weekend, just over and back, got back late Sunday night. We got to see Cliff's Mom and Dad for a few minutes and that was so nice. They are such wonderful people. The roads were clear and dry so it was an easy trip.

We have just been chilling out this week with Gabbi. She is a little pain in the butt but so damn sweet and so much fun that we can't imagine not having her. We have so much fun with her and she is such a character. She has to watch Annie and Elmo over and over on her TV and torments Digger to death. We usually go for a walk every afternoon but just around the block as she wants out and wants to run by that time. She has to keep those little feet moving. It is her 2nd birthday on Saturday but Charlee is having her party on Sunday so Teddi and Oliva can come down. Can't wait to see my sweet Olivia.

Wild Wonderful Week

Cliff went to Colorado and picked up the kids last weekend and we have been having a ball all week. We have been shopping, eating Chinese, Pizza, Olive Garden, going bowling, playing board games, etc. They have about worn Big Daddy out and Big Mama hasn't even been able to keep up. By about 7:00 at night I am in bed, dead to the world. Then every one else stays up half the night playing their farming game on face book. I declined as I had enough of the farm when I lived on a real farm and Ronnie and I had to milk the cows before we went to school every day!

It has been a really fun visit and the girls are just growing up so much. We have had Charlee's baby Gabbi every day and they have been a lot of help with her. She has had fun playing with Cheyenne and they have gone a million miles in the Barbie Car around the yard chasing Digger and tormenting him. Tony has been over a couple days and played games , so that was fun too. New Years Eve I went to bed a 7:00 but got up at 11:30 to ring in the New Year with them. The girls were BIG and drank Mimosa's and watched the fireworks on TV from the Strip in Vegas. We took them down to the strip a couple years ago, but now you have to be 18 to be on the strip after 9:00 in New Years so we just watched from home.

We were going to leave this morning to take the kids home but now we are putting it off till tomorrow, Just too tired an lazy to leave today, Plus it gives the girls an extra day. So then we won't see them till spring break, and Cheyenne will have grown another foot. I bought her 10*12 clothes for Christmas and they just fit her. She will be going up a size soon. My how times flies!!