Better Day

Well I woke up Sunday morning feeling so much better. Mind you it's still a pain in my ass but a bearable pain. I talked with my friend Nani and she said her port catheter was just awful too. We both thought they should have warned us about how bad it hurt so we would have been prepared instead of being scared that something was wrong. Nani has had her port for 4 weeks and she said it is just now getting to be "OK" it still stings and pulls but it is not so darn painful. The x-ray doc told me if it hurt to take come Tylenol for the pain. I told Nani I'd like to kick him in the b@!!'s and then stab him with a ice pick in the same location, then smile and tell him if it hurts just take some Tylenol.

I had not talked to Nani in about a week and she has had a really bad week. Her chemo was going so well and then at the beginning of her 3rd week, her white blood count dropped and she got a high fever and really sick. They gave her some medication and now she is much better (thank you God). I felt so bad I hadn't talked to her in a few days and then my port was killing me and she was sick as a dog so there you have it. I went to see her this morning but she didn't answer her door. Then she called me a few minutes later and said she couldn't have visitors as her white count was so bad. She is taking a different kind of chemo but it's not uncommon with all of it. She said she had always thought it was funny that I am so freaked out about losing my hair then her hair started to fall out on day 14 of her treatments and now she said that she has one clump left that has turned pure white. She said it looks so crazy but she just CANT shave it off. She said she finally knows how I feel. I felt so bad for her. She has been so sweet to me and I really don't know what I would do with out her to lean on.

I can tell you I am really afraid to go for my first round of chemo on Wednesday. I told Cliff today I feel like I am going to have a lethal injection shot and I am too stupid not to show up. I keep telling myself that thousands of people much less strong than I am do this every day, but I can tell you that's just blah-blah, I am still scared stiff. And I really hate that I have to start it before I go to Texas. Now I am afraid if something goes wrong and I am out of town, what will happen? This is just inconvenient I can tell you that (HA)

We did go and help Teddi and Marty move on Sunday. I felt fine and was so glad to be there. Cliff, Cha, Leo, Anthony, and Andrew were a lot of help, me not so much. I did herd the little heifer girls around so maybe that was some help. I enjoy seeing those babies so much, They are my little angel pigs and I love them so much. They are so sweet to their old Mima. They both have to kiss my ouchies and pat me and they know they have to hug me soft and Gordy always pets me like I am a dog. it is so damn sweet.

So if anyone has any prayers left please remember Nani and I , two old cancer war veterans!! Love ya all.